Finally a day to rest and do what I want. What a hectic week. Flight was touched down at late night and the next day the moment I woke up, I saw a message regarding my camp prep which our 'homework' has to be done by Tuesday. I panicked of course, thinking that how is it possible to finish everything by Tuesday cause we had a meeting on that day. So I met yunting on monday after her work to discuss some of the things until late night, and the next day, woke up early to sembawang campsite for our recce. After which we headed back to school to finish up the leftovers which we have to present during our meeting. Both of us were stressed up cause we felt that we weren't much prepared but luckily all went well. Meeting her almost everyday just to discuss about the programme flow and games that we are supposed to come up. Since I'm taking up this responsibilities, I'm definitely giving my best and hoping that at the end of the day, all the campers would enjoy themselves and the activities because it really takes up alot of my time and brain juice man. Not an easy task so really thankful to the programme committees for planning the poc last year.

All of these will be worth it at the end of the day so JIAYOU FISH :) and gotta apologise to bobby for venting out on him hehe

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Drafted out at 2.35am

Just a late night thought; Disclaimer - not pointing to any specific people

And at this point of time, I really seek for the understanding from you people whom I haven't been making time to meet or even giving slow replies. Sorry if it makes you feel that you are not important or I don't give a shit about you but no, that's not the case. I just need some time off my busy schedule for myself and my family too (even tho we just came back from a week of holidays) but they are still my priority no matter what. I need a break and disconnecting from the world is what makes me feel relax. There's no 'you' in a friendship, it's 'us'. If you are just gonna put yourself at the top priority and can't even be a little understanding towards me, have that little faith in us, in our friendship, I guess that speaks what kind of a friend you are. Which is why I'm always envy of guys' friendships because they will never have this type of problems. Time to time, when I'm on the bus and it's raining, looking at the raindrops make me feel so lonely but it's ok, being alone is the not worst thing in life, what's worse is being with people who actually makes me feel all alone. So it's better to have nobody than to have someone who is half there, or doesn't wants to be there. Trying to keep those thoughts off my mind and kick those insecurities away but girls being girls, what to do haha.

Feels so much better after penning down my thoughts. :D


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Anyway, saw this on ThoughtCatalog and I think it's quite true?

16 Ways To Identify Someone Who Is “Selectively Social”

1. You are very frank and loud at home or when you are with your friends but you turn into a timid shy ball when you are with people you hardly know.

2. You are the entertainer in your friends circle but you hate it when your friends expect you to entertain infront of a crowd of strangers.

3. You are very close to just one or two friends among your friends circle. With the rest of the friends in your circle, you are comfortable being you but you are not too close.

4. There is an uncertainty when you agree to keep in touch with people. There are days when you want to talk to people yet there are days when you don't want to talk to anyone.

5. When your friends ask you to join them for an outing, the first thing you ask is, "Who all are going?" and the answer is always, always a BIG influence on your decision.

6. You try your best to avoid having a conversation with people and hence, you stay away as far as you can from your next door neighbor, classmates, colleagues and friends of friends.

7. You enjoy being alone rather than hanging out with a bunch of people... but you become one of them if you join.

8. You hate it when people comment on how boring you and your life are. When others plan for a freaking weekend partying, shopping and movies, all you look forward to is, a stay-at-home weekend, doing nothing much, but just relax, read a book, write articles and dance to the blaring music with your pajamas on.

9. You cannot forgive yourself for inviting people to your home. Most of the time, you care the least about modesties but sometimes, "You can visit my place when you want to" slips off your mouth and all you do is, regret. Just regret. You will then think of every possible excuse to give when they say they are visiting you.

10. You hate it when your girlfriend of boyfriend has an out-going personality and you always get tagged 'my lifeless girlfriend/boyfriend'. And if you are single like me, your dream partner is not somebody who gets annoyed when you make no plans for hangouts and movies but somebody who loves staying at home spending quality time with you.

11.You love being around people you are close with but most of the time you cherish solitude. It's not that you never want to be with people but at the same time, it's not that you want to stay alone always. Nobody can or will ever understand your behaviour just as you yourself cannot.

12. You can stay mysteriously unplugged for weeks on end. There are days you talk to people a lot and there are days when you don't even respond to their messages and calls.

13. You fear getting close to people. Sometimes you get along with a person very well but there comes a point where you think you are getting close to that somebody and you disconnect immediately for a long time. Getting attached to people isn't your cup of tea.

14. You fancy the idea of partying with people but don't want to go to parties even if all the friends in your circle are going. You hate to turn down an invitation because you don't want to upset people but your solitude weighs more than that for you.

15. There's nothing more annoying than having an out-going person as your company. They can get on your nerves, talk to you about topics you least care and will persuade you to accompany them out on days you want to stay at home doing nothing. They will keep you waiting on the way while they talk to everyone they meet. Just because they smile and talk to everyone, you are seen crystal clear as 'the contrast'.

16. To those people who don't know you; you are and will remain that 'grumpy, rude and anti-social person' which in reality we aren't.