back to square one

Yesterday night was really bad. I had a long day in school so by right I should be able to get to sleep easily but no? Millions of thoughts came running through my mind and I was so vexed that I caught myself breaking down at the next moment. I was so upset with myself. Everything is bothering me so much. I really wonder where do I go wrong at times. I've tried, and tried, again and again but I still fail. I just can't accept the fact that my efforts r not showing any results. (or maybe I'm just plain dumb haha) My incapability is what makes me afraid of taking up roles and responsibilities cause I'm unsure if I'm up to it. There's so much that I want to say but guess what, I don't even have that courage to do so. I feel like a failure, like I can't even do anything right. I just can't find anything that I'm good in. Sometimes I really wished I'm half as good as my brother. Let this be the last time that I wet my pillow and went to bed with a heavy heart.



Feel so much better now after coming back from a day of shopping with mama :) she's awesome