One step at a time

Taking some time out to blog cause I feel that I have to. I don't want to bottle everything up, it just makes me feel even worst and uncomfortable. Sigh pie. Constantly stuck in my tutorials. Just what am I doing. I need to get back on track. I need to catch up with their pace. Always unknowingly have homeworks when I open my class group chat. Today during the break, I was at the library doing math and I can seriously feel how heavy the load is. I can't even breathe, everything is suffocating me. I wished to be spoonfed again. I don't want to be independent, I hate it. Printing lots and lots of notes, again and again. So lost and confused. Hate how my mood changes so fast these day... And I really feel bad for always venting my unhappiness at my mum :'( sigh how badly I wanna apologize yet those words just stuck at my throat. Need to stop breaking down every now and then. It's so tiring. To even pretend that I'm all well and fine when I'm actually not. Can everyone just leave me alone for this period of time and not give me unnecessary stress and worries? Really too much for me to take it. I'm not superman, I can't take so many things at a go. 

Sorry for privating my blog. Just really need a space to rant without people who'll comment or judge whatever I wrote. Keep those unnecessary remarks to yourself. I don't need it. This is my space, I call the shots.