Late night thoughts

I realised my mood always drop to the very bottom whenever I'm feeling stress which is cause by homework of course. Then I start to think about everything - life, friendship, family etc and feeling shitty all over again. Sigh. Always on the verge of breaking down whenever I can't do my tutorials. It's like, you get what the lecturer is saying but you just can't do the questions,  get what I mean? Is it me only or..? And my day wasn't really a good one. Ok it's good at first but some fucktards just had to ruin it. I know I shouldn't spit vulgarity but yeah sorry I'm really frustrated by everything that I'm facing. All the selfish, inconsiderate people. Then coming home to all these dramas like seriously, I really want to have some time alone. I wished I could just walk out of the house at that point of time. I need peace. I just want to be at a silent place. Even if it means sitting by myself at the park. Really hate how lonely I felt at that instance. I felt so empty. I hate how people come and go as and when they like, as if I never meant anything to them before. Ok yup maybe it's true. I was never once important at all. So what if I'm surrounded by friends? Just how many would actually truly concern about me. How many actually cares about how I really feel. The ones I thought would actually never did, at all. Sigh. I guess I should stop trying so hard to make things work out well. My life has always been this pathetic