Bae day

Did I just fucking cried again in the morning during lecture? Haha well done man. I've never been so upset before that I can cry for 3 consecutive days. Bad week really. I finally understand that caring too much can hurts. And yeah, why do I even bother trying and showing concern to the ones who don't appreciate and understand the reason behind me doing all these. Swear I wash my hands off everything I'm not gonna care anymore because the only thing they are good at is taking me for granted. I've tried, and I'm giving up now. They say my weakness is that I care too much and being softhearted. I can't deny. I can be so worried for someone or even, feel sad for the person that I cry for/over him. That's how much I care. But no point being the only one who cares when the person doesn't even worry about him/herself. No more, I'm not allowing myself to receive all the bullshits from people anymore. This time round, I'm gonna stand up for myself. 

That's why most people say you can't find true friends in poly. I cannot say I agree nor disagree. But I'm glad that I met my dengjun and yunting, and the rest (yknow who you are). Poly really shows me how harsh this society can be. Where people pursue for fame, popularity etc & how pretty girls get everything. This is life, isn't it. Suck it up man, yeah that's all I can do. Can't wait for the holidays so I can shut myself at home, staying away from everyone. So sick and tired of people honestly, hate the fact that I've to drag myself to school and back home, having to see all those faces......... (if you think I'm referring to you then so be it, take it if the shoes fit, I'm not gonna deny or what because basically I'm referring to everyone, be it in school or outside, family or friends yes)

 ^cool stuffs

Guess who met the bae in the evening today?

 ^yes bitches

^1 for 1 sb yay satisfied my craving thanks bae for the treat mua

 ^where's my kiss

Both of us had a pouring session as we were are (I guess we still) feeling a little (or more?) down. Couldn't believe we are actually in the same situation haha that's why we are best friends??? So far, it has been a really rough week for us and I sincerely pray and hope for better days ahead, cause I'm sure we don't deserve all these shits at all, or at least, not to her!

Jiayou bae, things will eventually turns better, I'll always support whatever decision you make as long as you think it's right. But one thing I cannot understand is that as a friend, you'll definitely want the best for them, that's what I thought, but why couldn't they feel the same way back? So yup, I just feel that the person might not be or can't be true to you. Idk, just my opinion though. As for the foc, go ahead, do what you want to do. And I think you make the right choice. Don't be too affected by what others say as they are just tryna bring you down. Stay firm with your choice!