My heart felt heavy. I knew I had to find ways to let it all out so it just came to a point where I couldn't hold it any longer and just let my tears flow uncontrollably. I know crying is never a solution but I just felt that I need to. I can feel the stress in me. I spent my study break doing math revision and that I neglected all my other modules. One of which is 6 credit. Wow. I felt so lost. I'm not sure how I'm going to continue this road. It feels like, I'm just wandering around, going with the flow. I hate how I missed so many days of lessons, due to my health, (not like I wanted to though) and now this is the price I've to pay. And currently I'm having flu and cough which aren't helping at all cause it's either I take medicines, sacrifice studies, or vice versa. Just now, someone asked me why do I look so sad and if I've any problems. I just smiled and kept quiet. I thought it was because I was exhausted from studying but now, I realised I was wrong. I crave for someone's hug, someone's shoulder so badly. I just want this week to be over. I need the holidays. I need my rest. I just want to lie on my bed all day long without moving or better still, waking up to the next day.
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