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It's times like this that makes me hate the life that I'm living now. I know I should be contented with what I have because I'm so much fortunate than some of the people out there. However, I just hate how unfair life has always been to me. Why can't people just be sensitive a bit and be a little bit more appreciative. I'm not asking much, and I know there's no question of whether it's worth it or not when you are doing something for the ones you love. But all I wish for, always, is that everything I do, makes them feel that they are so important to me that I'm willing to go the extra mile for them. Yes I might not know how to show my concern nor do I know how to say things that make people happy. But this just me - because I'm comfortable and close enough to you, and that's why you should know that you have a space in my heart even though I don't really show/say out. More than often, I realised the things that I'm doing rn is so meaningless. I'm seriously fucking sick and tired of being the one putting in the effort. I can't believe whatever I've done, is nothing as compared to them. I may not be the best but truthfully, I've done my best as a friend. Just leave. If you don't intend to stay. I know people will get tired of me sooner or later, it's just a matter of time isn't it. And that's the reason why I'm starting to build protective walls around me. I don't allow people to get close to me or even starting a conversation with me because I don't want to experience the feeling of having someone walking out of my life again when I'm slowly getting attached to him/her. 

I hate it I hate it I hate myself for landing into such situation which got me quite affected that I wanna smash my phone so badly.... Bye social medias. I guess I wouldn't want to see you for the time being