Bad Thursday

I know today is already Tuesday but my nightmare started on last Thursday.. Woke up to an itchy throat and I felt hot and cold at the same time, to the point where I couldn't take it anymore and cried while on the phone with my mum. I've been nothing but a trouble since secondary school, remembering how I used to get sent back home by my form teacher. It happened quite a lot of times in school, where my gastric just acted up all of a sudden. And I really need to thank those who always take care of me, accompany me to the toilet and helping me to find toilet papers from one end to the other. HAHA it's embarrassing but at the same time, touched that they didn't leave me in the lurch. Then my mum never fails to rush back home from after knowing I'm sick. So thankful. So basically now after I have finished my medicine, my throat didn't get any better but instead, worsen. I have been coughing every now and then which causes me to not have any proper sleep at all. And the saddest thing is I feel like eating so many food yet I have no appetite at all. Ok but tbh it does improves a lil bit, at least I'm eating some rice now.

Back to school yesterday for dry run of the pfp orientation. So glad that Yunting actually dragged me along cause initially I wasn't a part of this cause yknow, I'm always reluctant to do all this bullshit and stuffs. I don't really like to be the one giving instructions and lead the team but well, after attending, I realised that it's not a bad idea afterall. As in, I should really learn to be independent and step out of my comfort zone. And it's always good to learn new things.

Supposed to go for work today but I gave it a miss. I think I really need some rest. I nearly died while doing the dry run for the orientation and my vision is getting darker and darker. Then just now, I woke up to aching thighs. Not surprised cause I haven't been working out for so long. Idky but the job makes me feel so tired even tho I didn't work for all weekdays but it seemed like I'm working for months lolol no joke. Time passes super slow when working. Furthermore, we've been receiving bad attitude from the worker over there. There's always a limit to our tolerance and there came a point where I couldn't take it anymore and just cried a lil in grievance while being the cashier. During these few days of work, I often question myself: why do we have to work until so unhappy? Of course this applies to that particular workplace only (cause we will be allocated to diff. places) I really miss working at my previous workplace. Even though the working time is longer and the distance is further, at least I'm happy. At least they don't just attitude us when we did something wrong/they are in a bad mood. Really don't know how much longer I could take. Or just simply allocate us back to where my first day of work was at. AH forget it, life is never smooth-sailing so the only thing I could do is keep hoping. Hoping that things get better each day.