To a new year

2013 has officially ended and I must say it has been quite a good year for me. :) Especially is because I get to attend JJ's concert!!! :D well, at least I didn't cry as much as the previous few years. Definitely there's rough times for me and at times, I really do not know who to approach so there was once when I locked myself in the toilet and bawled my eyes out. That was one of the days when I felt so helpless. It seemed as though I was all alone by myself so I cooped myself at home, refusing to go anywhere. Then I self-comfort by telling myself that it's good to be alone. Cause you can just speak whatever that's on your mind and not to worry whether you'll offend anyone or not. And you do not have to worry about getting judged, most importantly, you can be true to yourself. Also, the reason to why I hardly confide to anyone is because I do not want to be deemed like a weakling. I believe everyone has their own problems and its already frustrating enough so there's not a need to add on to it.

 In some point of our life, we would definitely lose someone dear to us. As much as we wish it weren't so, people come and go. But I strongly believe everything happens for a reason. Too many hard lessons.. I've learn not to place my fullest trust in every of my friends because ultimately, I would be the one getting hurt most. We all have a lot of friends but to think again, who's the one that is really true to you. And I'm glad that I've friends whom I can really trust even though it's just a few, it's good enough.

Being nice to people doesn't mean you have to do a lot for them. It's all about the simple gestures. You won't expect your kindness to be reciprocated too if its genuine because you do all this out of your own will. And I believe someday they'll appreciate all that you've done for them. "You're gonna get taken advantage of someday." - people around me told me this before but I don't mind, because I'm willing to let the ones I cherish most take advantage of me hehe :-) in case you're wondering, I guess most of them are referring to my temper because I don't really have one and I always try to put up with everything to minimise the chances of getting into a conflict. One of the most precious lessons I learn is to let go. Letting go of people whom I'm better off without, and those who doesn't worth my good because it makes me look stupid holding on to that someone who doesn't even give a shit about me.

As cliché as it may sound, I really want to thank those good friends of mine (yknow who you are ya!) for not leaving and still staying by my side even when they have seen the ugliest side of mine and tolerating my never ending tears. I know I'm hard to handle too. Especially when my insecurities act up and my very weak immune system haha < specially thanks to bff. Though I may not have expressed my gratitude well, do know that I truly appreciate every little things that you guys have done for me. And when it comes to making of new friends, I really can't do well because I'm always not outgoing enough and it really takes me a lot of time to make a new one. For that, I would hold on to these friendships that I have because they don't come by easy and definitely worth keeping.

Thankful for all your care and concern towards me.
Thankful for loving me for who I am. Always.

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Great day out with my secondary school clique! Before that, met bff for a swimming session and we were so proud of ourselves after the swim hehe. Headed out in the evening to have our dinner at Hotpot Culture.
Back to the same place on the same day again. :-)

^always a good time with them around. Just kept crapping and laughing out loud with them, hence making my dinner an enjoyable one.

Left to the shoppes at MBS and while waiting for the clock to strike 12, we played some games and it was really fun seeing some of the guys and Angela doing forfeit. Then when it was almost 12, we squeezed our way out of the mall so that we could have a clearer view. Am grateful for the guys and Angela for keeping a lookout of me throughout the whole night, making sure that I'm not lost.

^couldn't help but to take a picture of this couple. Hehe I find it really sweet to be able to watch the fireworks together with the love of your life :)

It was really a big problem getting to the mrt station because the whole place was packed like sardine and I got squeezed and squashed by all the strangers. Nevertheless, we still wished the people beside us a happy new year and Junxiang was like wishing to everyone he saw. Anyway!! Was super elated that we got to hear Wang leehom singing 心跳 at a distance~ It was around 2+am when we reached Yishun and I was like cursing and swearing to Darren because of bus 804 which came so late :<

Lastlyyyyyyyyy,

To my dearest Honey, 

Honestly I miss times with you around. 

I miss bickering with you like how we used to during those days in school. 

I miss how we always brought breads to class so that we could have it during recess.

I miss how we always spazzed to each other about those handsome boys in school hehe.

I miss anything and everything about us.

All the assurance, encouragement, motivation that you never fail to give me each time I need it, is something that I'm always grateful for.

2013 might not be a good year for you and trust me, I feel your heartbreaks and pains too. Each time I see you being so upset yet I couldn't do anything to help makes me feel really useless. And all I could do is to just feel heartbroken for you.

 I may not be the best advisor nor a good listener but I just know that whatever happens, you can count on me I promise.

 I really wish that happiness could find its way to you soon cause I really can't bear to see you being so sad anymore. 

Sincerely hope that 2014 would be a better year for you cause you deserve much more better than this.