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Happy midweek guys :-) How's school? And yes, I'm really curious to know, especially for those who are in the pfp. Well, first week of school is over and now it's the second week. It seems like the time is passing very sloowww, probably it's because our lessons are always 2hours. First week of school wasn't as bad as what I thought. Tho we didn't get the chance to know one another more and get bonded during orientation, as day passes, we slowly began to bond together. And I do love it when we have lunch together as a class at a shelter. It's really a very good feeling like you are really part of the class :)

^1st proper class photo (excluding the ones we took during orientation)
Trust me, there's always somebody in the school who'll get me reminded of my friends, in terms of looks or character :( just like this 2 guys sitting beside Krishnan, the white one which is Yirong, looks like Minquan when he talks. While the black one, Chengchun, looks so much like Gotwin!

I must say everything's different. The environment and especially the people around me. I did make friends but it's really hard to find someone whom I have the same interest with and have plenty of topics to talk about... Yknow... I used to have Angela, Vanessa, Huixian etc that I can tease, guailan with and have plenty of common topics to talk about, not to forget people like Jingxuan that I always have the urge to hug her whenever I see her but now? As I walk down the road, all I see is unfamiliar faces. Unlike that popular Krishnan, go everywhere also can see his friends and must stop to say hi. :( This feeling sucks a lot.....it feels as tho I'm all alone in this school. But well, I'm thankful too at the same time that my classmates are willing to take the initiative to talk to me first. :) Sorry I'm kind of a bit shy and reserved but I believe as time goes by, I'll definitely open up to you guys ;)

What make it worst is that I find all my classmates so smart that they seem to understand every words that the lecturers said. And here I am, the stupidest of all who is struggling to make it thru the foundation year. Yes I feel really really inferior in my class ok.

I remember I used to dread P.E lessons because of 2.4km run however, the first P.E lesson turned out unexpectedly fun! :D We played Captain's ball within our own class and the reason to why I find it fun is probably because I got the chance to catch and throw the ball, which I seldom would in Secondary school. I find that my existence is finally noticeable here in poly than in secondary school, no joke. The only module that I'm really really afraid of is Bio because I've never learn before and the lecturer speaks really soft that even I, sitting on the first four row couldn't hear him. Well, again, probably is because the class is noisy. But hey, he's a guy!!!!

NE programme today was beneficial, at least to me. The lecturer is a psychologist and what he analyze bout me was so true omgomg! Judging by a survey, the things that I like to do and a mouse test, he knew that I'm one who preferred to keep things to myself and is very emotional. I remember he said that we shouldn't let anyone or any words to bring us down. And we are all pretty and handsome. There's only this face *points to your own face* in the whole entire universe that's why we are all good looking. I can't agree further but how to not get affected? I'm really affected by how pretty girls can get everything. Literally everything. I really need to learn to love myself more and feel good about myself. There's never a day when I could look at the mirror and smile widely because I think I'm beautiful. Yeah, in my dreams lor! I really hope at the end of the day, I would be able to look at myself in a positive light.

First lab lesson! 

^I know I look a bit pajiao here AHAHAHA have no idea what happened to my eyes

Whatever it is, I'm going to pull thru this year and make it a fulfilling one :)