17th

Definitely not in a good mood...not because people piss me off ,but it's just my own feelings that took control of me, and I swear I'm not in my usual self too. Anw had my last paper, th easiest POA test I've ever take ! ((; IF ONLY, I focus more on theory...........

You :

I'm so sorry . I shouldn't have avoid you in th first place, I teared , so? I guess it won't change anything too right. And Idk why I did that too. >< I told myself not to do that anymore, but I just can't. Each time I see you, I just feel like running away . I've never felt this way before. And I know we had countless of eye contacts, b it in class , recess or even aft school , and I just looked away. I really feel bad aft doing ! Have th urge to talk to you, but whenever I see you, I got no idea of what to say too. Checking my phone every now and then for your messages , but nah, you never text me... things ain't like th past anymore.... ): Like I've said , th problem lies in me, as you're too good , too perfect for me ... while me ? Just a useless piece of shit.........I hate me , sucks to b me . Hate myself for making th wrong move, hate to see us being in this kind of state...... 
I don't deny th fact that I'll think of you sometimes....

I miss my grandma ! :(

Can't cry, I can't . 

忍住不哭忍住不哭，望向天空不让眼泪流出。