No words could express my sadness.

That's me.

Yeah , as th title shown above , I really got no idea of how to blog. I feel like crying my heart now . Hate this fuck life of mine seriously. I've been thinking alot just now , when I was alone taking a stroll.. What really caused th drastic changed in me. I wasn't like this in th past. As in , emotionally . I used to b a happy-go-lucky / cheerful girl . But now not. Instead , I get irritated easily nowadays and feel low at such simple things. I can even cry when watching a show. How awesome is tt ? -__- & I'm trying my best not to neglect any of my friends alrdy. Sigh. I do distance myself from people too bcos I'm afraid of getting hurt once again. I really gotta protect this vulnerable heart of mine ): Stimes , I'm not quite sure if I could really trust someone as I've been let down a lot of times but at th same time, I really wanna give each other a chance to start afresh altho I still don't really dare to do so. I feel like asking each and every one of you - what am I to you? Honestly. Thinking back , I once wished tt I could go to a faraway schl with no close friends who knows my backgrounds at all , how great is it to b able to start afresh? I kinda suck too . Suck in studies , in everything . I just find no talents in me , no perfections but with a lot of flaws. I'm not a good daughter , a good student , nor a good friend at all. I find myself a burden to them and just bring trouble for them only when they alrdy have their own problems. I really hope tt there would b a day where I could sleep my day off and never wake up again. Mayb you'll find me joking but seriously , I'm drained from all these stuffs. Tell me , all I've said is not true at all , I'm just being sensitive and paranoid. Well , here I am running away from realities . Kay whatever , it hurts a lot. My heart shattered into pieces aft all th harm tt's done to me.. no point saying all these , doesn't matters anymore..

In your heart , she might have replaced me alrdy . I shouldn't b so sad , in fact I should b thankful for it . Cause at least , you'll b much more happier with her than me.

What if one day , I really disappear from this world ? What would you do then? I really do not have th guts to tell you how I really feel.