I don't even know my own feelings , I just feel like faking a smile infront of everybody bcos deep down , I'm really hurting... I can deceive others but I just can't deceive myself... No matter how much I remind myself to forget you , move on and not look back , I just can't do it .... I pray everyday , every night before I sleep , tt someday , miracles would happen & you would come forward and talk to me ... I really wanna let go , but my heart and brain don't allow me to do so. People told me not to waste any more tears on you , I try to b strong but failed . They told me how worthless it is for me to cry over , I did not listen to them. Bcos to me , you're th perfect one in my heart. & I just love th way you are <3

Exams' round th corner and I'm still unable to stay focus ! All I want to do is to sleep sleep and sleep :< sigh . I really wanna study but I don't have th mood to do so, damn. Failed tests , I can't continue like this if not I'll sure b dead for MYE. Gotta buck up and not get distracted too easily. Tired of being like this , I wanna go back to my usual self ):

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRYSLER <3 MISSDIEYOUSXZC ! ):